I don’t think I’m fine right now. I really wanna know why. I really wanna tell someone about this. It’s not like I’m so full so that I’m ready to be blown up or burst out some of my feelings. It’s more like I’m lacking 'something'. I’m lacking this 'something', but it doesn’t make a painful and empty dark hole in me.
It’s hard to put it into words.
It’s like the strong shield that used to protect me, give me the feeling that I’m safe, is start to broke….not, it’s more like the shield isn’t as strong as it used to be. As if it’s getting very fragile.
Just like a bulletproof-glass turned into an egg’s shell……
Yes, it is very fragile now, but I can't break it from inside even if it does look as if even the slightest touch will make it crack.
And it feels really weird
